Finally, We Talk...

This is the last week for us to meet each other
We're gonna say goodbye soon
Before that time comes
I'm so glad that finally we can talk like a friend
Do you know how much I was trembling?
thump, thump, thump......
I could hear my heart beat
But I try to keep it for my self
I tried to look at your eyes
And I couldn't stand it but smile
Even though our conversation is too short
But I feel like I got the whole world
Because for the first time in the last 5 years
There is someone who can make me feel like this again
And It's You
Thank You for always being there when I need You
I'm sorry for hurting you
But still, thank you .... 

I See You're Looking at Me

You see me

Again and again

I wanna approach you and ask

Are you looking at me?

I try to look ahead

But I can’t deny, I make my visual field wide open

Just to make sure, whether you look at me or not

And when I turn my gaze at you,

I see you’re looking at me

With a serious look

Like you’re analyzing me

Whenever I move from my place

I feel that you’re looking at me again

You make sure whether I’m going home or not

When I walk out through the door

You’re out too

When I wait in the room

You wait too

You try to walk beside me....

Even when I thought that you’ve already home,

You wait me at the front

Am I too sensitive or indeed true feelings

That you like me

But maybe I’m too confident

Because People like you won’t fall for people like me

I’ll keep this for my own..

Because For You, I am Nobody

Hello there!

Is it difficult for you, to say you that you love me?

Is it difficult for you to say that I worth more than everything you have?

I'll do everything for you

Can you see that?

You are the pain in my heart

Can you feel what I feel now?

Can you feel that my love is just for you?

I guess you can't

Because in your heart, there is no me

There is no my name

Maybe there is someone else's

But who?

Can you please tell me, who is she? who is she????

I don't have any right to love you

And I don't have any right to ask you to love me

I remember everything you said to me

But, may be you don't

because for you, I am nobody :')

check this out in my soundcloud

Road to Doctor #1

memang tidak ada yang bilang jalan ini mudah
tidak ada yang bilang aku akan baik-baik saja
kadang aku merasa iri dengan mereka
di saat mereka libur, aku harus berkutat dengan kuliah ku
di saat mereka tidur di malam hari, aku harus belajar agar aku dapat menyembuhkan mereka
di saat mereka sudah lulus, aku hanyalah mahasiswa yang masih harus terus belajar
waktuku hanya habis untuk mempelajari penyakit mereka semua
terkadang aku berpikir, apakah semua ini perlu aku lakukan?
apakah aku perlu mengabiskan waktuku untuk belajar?
tapi...
setiap kali pikiranku menyuruh untuk berhenti, hatiku menolak.
aku ingat akan alasanku
aku ingat akan mereka
ada rasa bahagia disaat aku bisa menolong orang lain
ada rasa senang disaat aku bisa menyembuhkan orang lain
ada rasa bersyukur di saat melihat orang lain tersenyum kepada ku
perjalananku masih panjanggg...
sangat panjang.....
mungkin suatu saat aku akan jenuh
mungkin suatu saat aku memilih berhenti
tapi aku mohonnn..
jika saat itu tiba, ingatkan aku akan tujuanku.
ingatkan aku akan mimpiku.

MIDNIGHT

cold outside..
no more sun
only the dark comes
it's just like me..
no more you
only loneliness comes
it's been MIDNIGHT, where are you now?
no reply, no texts, no smile.
what's my fault?
so you leave me..
you're gone without sound, without trace.
I couldn't find you.
I'm down with this scar
but never mind, if it's mean you'll be happy :')

Heart's Sound

time past away
no one second without thinking about you
it waste my time
but I love it

you are far away
but so close to my heart
guess what!
I love you...
but, what is that?
pain? hurt? or love?
you are her?
so what? am I wrong?
my heart fall for the wrong heart
this feeling kill me inside
dont you know it? can you feel it?
this is MY HEART'S SOUND !!!
are you deaf?
insensitive?
impossible to owning your heart, right?

it,s OK :') THANKS :'(