WHY

Kalian masih ingat dengan laki-laki yang pernah aku ceritakan waktu SMA dulu?
Dulu aku pernah menyukainya, tapi aku melepaskannya karena temanku juga menyukainya.
Aku tidak mendekatinya karena aku tau itu akan menyakiti hati temanku.
Dan akhirnya mereka berpacaran cukup lama, dan aku mendukung hubungan mereka.
Ntah kenapa tiba-tiba aku dengar hubungan mereka putus.
Ketika aku tanya alasannya, si wanita itu tidak memberikan jawaban.
Hari ini, aku bertemu laki-laki itu lagi.
Mungkin ini yang ketiga kalinya aku bertemu dengannya setelah hubungan mereka putus.
Tapi, dia selalu memalingkan wajahnya setiap bertemu denganku.
Aku selalu ingin memanggilnya, ingin berbincang dengannya, tapi tak bisa...
Karena dia berlalu dengan cepat.
Bahkan tadi, ketika aku sedang dengan temanku, dia begitu juga.
Temanku yang sedang berjalan disampingku menarik lenganku dan berkata, "itu Dia!"
Tapi saat aku memandangnya, dia sedang menoleh ke arah lain.
Aku bertanya kepada temanku, apakah tadi lelaki itu memandang ke arah kami.
Dan temanku menjawab dengan tegas, "YA!"
Dia mengatakan entah kenapa lelaki itu langsung menolehkan pandangannya.
Aku bingung...
Apakah dulu aku melakukan kesalahan padanya?
Padahal jika kupikir-pikir, hubunganku dengannya cukup baik.
Dia adalah salah satu temanku laki-laki yang cukup dekat denganku.
Tapi ntah mengapa sepertinya sekarang dia membangun tembok.
Tembok yang ingin sekali kudaki, aku ingin melihat apa yang ada disana.
Aku penasaran...
Mengapa dia seperti itu?
WHY???

Finally, We Talk...

This is the last week for us to meet each other
We're gonna say goodbye soon
Before that time comes
I'm so glad that finally we can talk like a friend
Do you know how much I was trembling?
thump, thump, thump......
I could hear my heart beat
But I try to keep it for my self
I tried to look at your eyes
And I couldn't stand it but smile
Even though our conversation is too short
But I feel like I got the whole world
Because for the first time in the last 5 years
There is someone who can make me feel like this again
And It's You
Thank You for always being there when I need You
I'm sorry for hurting you
But still, thank you .... 

Bersyukurlah

Bersukacitalah senantiasa. Tetaplah berdoa. Mengucap syukurlah dalam segala hal, sebab itulah yang dikehendaki Allah di dalam Kristus Yesus bagi kamu. ~ 1 Tesalonika 5:16-18

Saat aku membaca ayat tersebut, aku merasa sesuatu dihatiku.

Bagaimana aku akan bersukacita, apabila aku tidak bersyukur?

Semenjak aku menjadi mahasiswa kedokteran, banyak sekali kegiatan sosial yang aku lakukan. Setiap aku melakukannya, aku bahagia. Rasa bahagia ini tidak sama seperti yang aku rasakan ketika aku berkumpul dengan temanku, atau lulus dalam ujian, atau mungkin saat jatuh cinta. Tapi lebih besar, bercampur dengan rasa bangga dan lelah. Tapi tetap bahagia. Saat aku melihat mereka yang kekurangan, entah itu dalam hal rohani atau jasmani, aku bertanya kepada Tuhan, “Mengapa Engkau membiarkan mereka menjalani hidup seperti itu Bapa? Kenapa Engkau membiarkan mereka miskin, sakit, cacat, atau bahkan sakit jiwa? Apa yang salah dengan mereka? Apa mereka berbuat dosa begitu banyak? Apa itu sebuah hukuman?" 

Terlalu lama pertanyaan seperti itu menghinggapiku. Hingga suatu saat aku sadar...

Bahwa....

Itu bukan hukuman....

Itu bukan akibat dosa....

Melainkan...

Ada kekuatan besar yang tersimpan dibalik itu semua.

Mereka mengajarkan diriku, dirimu, dan semua orang di dunia ini untuk bersyukur. Bersyukur terhadap hal-hal yang kecil hingga yang besar. Bersyukur karena dapat menghirup oksigen tanpa bantuan alat apapun, mungkin diluar sana beberapa orang harus mengeluarkan uang demi oksigen. Bersyukur atas rasa lelah setelah seharian mengikuti kuliah, karena mungkin banyak yang tidak bisa  kuliah. Jangankan kuliah, membaca saja mereka tak bisa, bukan karena mereka tidak mau, tapi karena keterbatasan. Bersyukur masih dapat mendengar omelan dari orangtua dan dosen. Mereka yang bahkan tak bisa mendengar, ingin mendengar walaupun itu hanya suara angin saja.

Mungkin jika aku mengalami hal yang sama seperti mereka, aku tidak akan kuat. Aku mungkin menyerah. Tapi Tuhan memberikan karunia itu kepada mereka. 

Kenapa???

Karena Dia tahu bahwa mereka adalah orang pilihan. Orang-orang yang terpilih untuk memancarkan kekuasaan Tuhan dengan segala kekurangan mereka. Dan apabila kamu adalah salah satu diantara mereka, bersyukurlah karena engkau adalah orang terpilih. Terimakasih, kalian adalah guru kehidupanku..

Dan apabila kamu yang sedang membaca ini adalah orang yang berkecukupan dalam segala hal, bukankah itu suatu kejahatan jika kamu tidak bersyukur? 

Ambillah sedikit waktu mu untuk bersyukur.

Tidak perlu lama hingga 2 jam seperti saat engkau menonton bioskop.

5 menit

10 menit

Berapapun waktu mu itu, Tuhan akan sangat senang menerimanya.

Marilah bersyukur mulai sekarang, sehingga engkau mendapatkan sukacita yang engkau nantikan itu.

 Ini beberapa foto yang kami ambil bersama mereka, abaikan wajah saya yang terlampau bahagia

Just wanna tell...

I dont know how to start this.
Recently, I feel emptiness inside me. Usually when I feel like this, I would do something so that I could just forget it. But this time, it doesn't work.
Honestly, it seems like I'm missing someone. I don't know who. But it feels like I really desperate. I think I know why, but I think I don't. Isn't is weird?
Well just wanna tell you that about 7 years ago, I had a crush with someone. You can call him my first love lol :D
I really liked him. I kept my feeling for my own and never told him. We were friends but not so close. I rarely talked to him, I think it only once or twice. But I can't kept that secret for a long time. I told one of my friend that I liked him and my friend accidentally told him about that. After that, we never be the same again. He never talked to me and I was so afraid to start it too. But I felt that after he knew my feeling, he became like to teased me. But only with action, never a word. And I like it so much. Every time I passed his class, I hope that I could meet him.
After we graduated, since we entered the different school, I only meet him once. It was when I was in the last year of high school. But we acted like we don't know each other. It hurts but since we always like that in the pass, I never mind it. Instead, I was so happy that I could meet him again. Even just for a while.
I'm in college right now, but sincerely, no one ever able to make me feel like that. Some men try to get my attention but still they can move my heart. But him, he didn't even do anything but I fell in love anyway. I don't know why, may be its just because I don't like them or may be I still can't let him go. But really I have forgotten him. For me he only my first love, never more. So, I think I have open my heart for anyone. It just I don't meet someone that can make me love again.
I keep asking myself why I write something like this lol :D
But I feel a little bit relieved. Thanks for reading my story :)

A little bit more...

Hello guys :)
Do you know what time it is?
It must be blogging time :) xoxo

 

I dont know why I'm here writing this stuff. I just feeling full and empty at the same time. Right now, it just like I get everything I want. Even about my last post, I get it too. But, at some point, I want to take a rest. I'm tired. I want to sleep. I want to dream.

Can you see that? I mean, my face. No! I mean, my expression. I'm smiling, right? But, as the quote saying, "Dont judge a book by its cover". Can we use it right now??

See the book that I hold? Hmm... You can say it's a book that knows what I'll do and did. It's not diary of course. I'm not a kind of girl who write about everything I faced in one day in the book. Yes, I was. But I dont have time for doing that anymore. That book is like my journal.

Well, the more I think about it, the more I get worried. So, I'm just gonna do it as it used to be. I keep saying to myself, "just a little bit more Putri, hang on! You've been faced everything and here you are. You are damn awesome! You've proved them. You slayed!! It just a little rock. Kick it!".


You guys must be not understand this. But, I dont care hahahaha :P

Recent Fav Kdrama & Songs

Unlike the other post, today I wanna share about my current favorite songs. So, I just watched korean drama entitled "Who are you? (School 2015)". Well, I have to say that it's a should watched drama! Why??? Because everything in that drama is so well organized. The plot, actors, actresses, even the soundtrack is so damn gooddddd. I really enjoyed watch it. Every characters in the drama have a good role, their acting is so professional. I love how the story flow. I think it's one of the best kdrama I've ever watched. But I don't really like the ending. Because I expect Eun Bi will end up with Tae Kwang. Sincerely! I have a gloomy day because she ends up with Yi Ahn. It's not like I hate Yi Ahn, but I'm a super Eun Bi and Tae Kwang shipper! I wish Yi Ahn will be together with Eun Byul. If it was going to be like I said, it must be become an awesome ending. My heart is so breaking when I see Tae Kwang broken heart :(
So, you guys must be wondering why I keep telling about the drama while the title of this post is about my fav songs Lol :D
Just like I said before, this drama has a good soundtrack. There are totally 8 songs. And guess what? I love all of them. All of the melody is really good to hear. My super favorite one is Reset. The second one is Return, and the third one is Love Song. I bet you won't regret when you listen to them. This is the list:
1. Baechigi - Fly With The Wind
2. Byul - Remember
3. Jonghyun & Taemin - That Name
4. Reset (feat. 진실 Of Mad Soul Child)
5. Return (With 육지담) (Wendy of Red Velvet)
6. Love Song (Feat. 박혜수)
7. Yoon Mi Rae - I'll listen to what you have to say (너의 얘길 들어줄게)
8. Younha- Pray (기도)

Enjoy listening <3

note: Honestly tomorrow I'll have a KKD exam and I'm still here writing random things hehehe. Wish me luck, guyss :)

Still Wake up

Hi blog readers!
What' up?
It's a midnight and I'm still WAKE UP!
Such a rare thing for a girl like me hahaha :D
Should we celebrate this????
My friends know that I'm a sleep lover and always go to bed early. I don't like being sleepless because I hate being sleepy on the next day. When I'm sleepy, I can't concentrate well and being a lazy person (well honestly it's just an alibi though xoxo)
So, why do I still wake up?
The answer is.... hmmmmm.....
I'm not sure hehehe :D
I just done watching drama and now I cant sleep. Tomorrow I'll have a discussion class in the morning. Not sure whether I can make it or not.
Do you miss me??? I know you do hehehe
this is my selca! Lets smile :)

My Turn!

Right now is my turn!
I'll never let it go!
I've been waiting for this time!

Hello readers, you know what? There is something I want to do this time. When I was in high school, I never can do it. I spent my time just sitting and watch them win. But right now, no! I'm not gonna do it anymore. I'll take the seat! There's quote saying, "The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you can not do". So, just let me do! Back then, there are many people underestimate me, they always bring me down. I couldn't held my head up. I was hiding in my shell. Waiting in my comfort zone. Limiting my ability. Shouting in my heart. Never brave enough to do this and that.

Now, it's renewed me. I'll work hard. play hard, study hard, and show them what I can. I still want to go there. My dream is still waiting for me. I won't sit down and watch it burn. I should make it up. I've been crawling all this time. Now is turn to run! Time is chasing me. I'm going to catch it all.

Bye~~~

TWENTY ♥♥♥

haloo semuanyaaaaaaa :D
Udah lama banget ya aku nggak ngepost lagi.
Nah, jadi kali ini aku mau ngepost sesuatu yang #PENTING (menurut aku). Apa itu? ayo tebakkkk hehehe :D Udah aku kasi bocoran loh dijudulnya...
Jadi, 3 hari yang lalu, tepatnya tanggal 21 Mei 2015, Putri Sondang Pasaribu genap berumur 20 tahun #UYEEEEEEE
udah kepala dua, berasa udah tuaa :(
aku mau ceritain nih kronologis apa aja yang terjadi pada tanggal it
kita mulai dari subuh yaaaa
jadi ceritanya hari itu aku ada ujian KKD. apa itu KKD? KKD itu singkatan dari keterampilan klinis dasar. karna ini lagi modul kardiovaskular, jadi yg diujiankan ada pemeriksaan tanda vital, pemeriksaan fisik jantung, pengukuran JVP, dan pemasangan EKG. Banyak banget kannnn? Bayangin aja aku belajarnya baru dikit banget, cuman secuil! Aku mulai belajarnya subuh kira2 jam 1 atau 2 gitu. Dengan setengah nyawa nyoba ngapal-ngapalin checklist. Udah selesai belajar aku langsung lanjut tidur lagi. Untung aja gak telat bangun.
Pas udah sampe dikampus aku anteng-anteng aja. Ada latihan dikit lah sama ayi waktu itu, tapi masalahnya aku belum prnah masang EKG sendiri. Palingan Cuma ngeliatin doang. Waktu pengen belajar sama Egy, ehhh nama aku dipanggil. Dalam hati udah banyak-banyak doa semoga dapet fasil yang baik hati dan gak buat gugup. Pas masuk ruangan, jeng jeng jengggg... ternyata dokter Mitra #Horeeeee :D pas awal-awal agak gugup. Biasa lah ya kalo ujian KKD kayak kena sindrom gitu. Mual, muntah, anoreksia, sedikit amnesia, gagap, sakit perut, poliuria, pokoknya banyak banget deh hahaha :D pas liat probandus nya ternyata Asjat, dia lumayan bisa diajak kerjasama lah.  Waktu pemeriksaan tanda vital, asli aku cepat banget. Soalnya gak mau kehabisan waktu. Pemeriksaan jantung pas perkusinya yg makan wktu banyak, mana tangan gemeteran lagi kan. Pemasangan EKG agak lumayan deh, soalnya udah ada bekas merah2 bulat gitu didadanya Asjat. Jadi gampang hahaha. Dan yang senengnya itu waktu selesainya pas banget pake bangetttt.. kasian temen2 aku yg lainnya, banyak yg gak selesai soalnya huhuhu :(
Selesai ujian aku langsung cus pulang ke rumah. Dirumah mama udah ada, soalnya mau masak buat acara partangiangan nanti malam. Walaupun sedikit, setidaknya aku berkontribusi dalam pembuatan makanan. Walaupun cuman beli kelapa parut+aqua+daun jeruk aja hehehe :D aku coba ngeliat tab aku, siapa tau ada yg ngucapin selamat ulang tahun gitu #NgarepBanget. Dan ternyata ADAAAAAA :D di hp juga trnyata ada yg ngucapin muehehehe. jam setengah 3 balik lagi kekampus sambil nganterin mama ke pasar. Sampe dikampus, kelas sepi banget kayak kuburan. Syukur aja kuliah radiologinya jadi.
Pulang kerumah udah magrib. Acara partangiangan pun dimulai. Seperti biasa aku yg buat doa. Pas diakhir acaranya papa Elin jadi MC buat acara ultah aku hehehe :D maacii papa Elinn.. nih aku kasih foto-fotonya waktu ituuu.

 

nih aku kasi videonya hehehe

selesai acara seperti biasa aku nyuci piring wkwkwk

selesai beres2 langsung tidur, padahal besoknya ada ujian praktikum :')

akhirnya ceritanya selesaiii horayyyyyy

hari ini udah tanggal 24, cuaca mendung banget. nih aku kasi fotonya

gelap banget kan? kayak masa depan lo? hahaha
nggak ding bercanda doang..
sampe sini aja ya ceritanya.. dadaaaaa #muahhh #twenty #21051995 #21051015 #blessed

Eternal Love

Michael Learns to Rock - Eternal Love

It's a beautiful feeling
What we got deep inside
We got a flame that will last forever
Together you and I
Such a rush of emotions
There's no way we can push it away
Cuz they'll never tear our love apart
Our bond will never break
Do you believe in the power
Of everlasting love
We can make it if we stay together
Our love is just enough
Promise me this forever
We'll always stay this way
We can start at the end of time
And do it all again
Oh my love
I'm all yours
And there will never be another one
‘cause I'm eternally yours
My heart's a flame
And it's burning in your name
Even through the sands of time
My love will always grow
And I won't let go
No matter if you're near of far
Our bond will never break
Promise me this forever
We'll always stay this way
We can start at the end of time
And do it all again
Oh my love
I'm all yours
And there will never be another one
‘cause I'm eternally yours
My heart's a flame
And it's burning in your name
Even through the sands of time
My love will always grow
And I won't let go
It's a beautiful feeling
We've got deep inside
And there will never be another one
‘cause I'm eternally yours
My heart's a flame
Such a rush of emotions
Burning in your name
We can't push it away
Even through the sands of time
My love will always grow
My eternal love 

Hello peopleee :)

I wanna share my secret with you hehehe :D

So, yesterday I came to an event. I dont need to mention its name because it's a secret. Do you know what? When I came there, I wish nothing, just wanna spent my saturday night. When I walked into the table, I saw someone. I guessed I know him. But I wasnt sure enough. I even talked and smile with Him. I said, "Should I sign too?" But He just stared at me and nodded his head. He didnt say anything. He looked at my writing, and when I write where I came from, he turned his head. So I guessed it wasnt him. Because if it were him, He must be greeted me, and even holler at me. So I just came in the place and thought hard about him. But, when I saw him for a second time, I'm just totally sure it's him!!! And for the third time, I was exit the place and I saw him again. He looked at me, but then he just turned his head. Its like He didnt want to see me. Then I just walked past him. I looked at my back, and he just like looked at his back too. Like he wanted to see me. I'm just so confused! if it wasnt him, why he should turned his head? I mean, we've known each other and we've laughed together. Even we joked together. We just didnt meet each other for about a year. I admit it was my fault too because I didnt greet him. But it because I wasnt sure it was him. But one thing I'm sure about is I'm falling for him, again! Fyi, I ever liked him. But because in that time he had someone, so I just forget him. But when I see him now, my heart is trembling. The lyric above (and even the melody) describe my feeling right now.... Will it works? I dont know. Just time that can answer me :)

Jesus, please blesses this one :) pleaseeee :) thank you, love You! <3

Road to Doctor #2

Haloooooo :)
Apa kabar?
Masih pada hidup kannn? Hehehee
Kalo aku? Hmmm... not bad, nor good.
I'm doing my minithesis now. But it seems it's gonna be though. Honestly, I've been preparing my thesis's title for such a long time. But when I get into this point of time, everything is just out of my control. Well, you know, my faculty having some problems with a hospital. And guess what? The hospital is a place where I'm gonna took the sample. It sucks, isnt it?
Pffttttt.....
So, I use my brain (finally!) to survey which hospitals that suit my category. First, it must be have patients. Second, it's public. Third, located in Pontianak. But I found none of them have these. And I'm just like, God, please...... :')
As you know I'm not easily giving up with something (including man) xoxoxo :D
So, I choose a new hospital. Well honestly it's not that new, it's been operating for about 2 years. But when I go there, I found no patients. I feel doubt! Totally doubt! :(
But as it says "dont judge a book by its cover", so I took my step into the hospital. Send the letter, and wait for the confirmation. And today is the third day of waiting, and still no confirmation. For a second time, I feel doubt.
I ever thought to change from analytic into experimental. But, an experience of going to hospital by myself and interview the patiens based on their medical record is such a WOW!!!
Dont you think so? Please think so :')
Please pray for my minithesis. Pleaseeee..... ♥♥
Xie xie nimen :)
Zai jian!
See you in the next post xoxo :D

Road to Doctor #1

memang tidak ada yang bilang jalan ini mudah
tidak ada yang bilang aku akan baik-baik saja
kadang aku merasa iri dengan mereka
di saat mereka libur, aku harus berkutat dengan kuliah ku
di saat mereka tidur di malam hari, aku harus belajar agar aku dapat menyembuhkan mereka
di saat mereka sudah lulus, aku hanyalah mahasiswa yang masih harus terus belajar
waktuku hanya habis untuk mempelajari penyakit mereka semua
terkadang aku berpikir, apakah semua ini perlu aku lakukan?
apakah aku perlu mengabiskan waktuku untuk belajar?
tapi...
setiap kali pikiranku menyuruh untuk berhenti, hatiku menolak.
aku ingat akan alasanku
aku ingat akan mereka
ada rasa bahagia disaat aku bisa menolong orang lain
ada rasa senang disaat aku bisa menyembuhkan orang lain
ada rasa bersyukur di saat melihat orang lain tersenyum kepada ku
perjalananku masih panjanggg...
sangat panjang.....
mungkin suatu saat aku akan jenuh
mungkin suatu saat aku memilih berhenti
tapi aku mohonnn..
jika saat itu tiba, ingatkan aku akan tujuanku.
ingatkan aku akan mimpiku.

Bring Me There, Please!

Hello readers :) How's life?
It's been so long since my last post. I miss blogging so muchhh. Like I've told you before, I'm a medical student. So I was so busy in my first year. I had to pass some welcoming event for a new student. It so tiring yet I'm excited. Because I've learned so many things. And how about my GPA? well, not bad. I'm satisfied with the result. Like you know, I love learning new things. And in medical, I learned awesome new things. So, I think that's how I get my GPA. Now, back to the main topic. This post entitled Bring Me There, Please!
This month is holiday month. So I wanna list some cool places I want to go to. All of them is flowery place. Because I love Flower xoxoxo. Here they are:

1. Sakura Garden
Well, if we talk about Sakura, the first city that will pop in our mind must be Tokyo. Let me introduce you Inokashira Park. Where Peaceful, romantic, sweet, and what-more-I-can-say I think is not enough to explain this fabulous Park.

 

2. Tulips Garden
Where do we find tulips? Of course Amsterdam is the ultimate answer. Keukenhof Garden is the best place where you can find Tulips Garden.

 3. Shibazakura Park in Japan
one word o describe this park, SPEECHLESS <3

I will post the other places that I want to go to.  See u in the next post :)

fragile

have you ever love someone for such a long time, but he never know it?
have you ever feel unnoticed by someone you love?
I feel it now..

I've loved him from the first time we met. I never thought I would fall this hard. I think I can be with him. But now, I guess I'm wrong. Why does he should be with my friend? and why do I need to sacrifice (AGAIN) ?
I have a heart too. A fragile one. He can break it anytime he wants. But it's so unfair. He always act like he like me too. He always can make me smile but a second later I cry. It's so hurt when I see him with her. Too hurt! I'm tired hiding my heart. I want to tell him but HOW? I'm the girl, and I'll not tell it first. And now he has a gf, I dont want to ruin them.

I've loved you from the start

I dont know how to start it. I just loved you without a reason. I know it's so impossible to close to you. People said many girs like you. So what? is it wrong? I know all of them are prettier than me. But I dont care. Tell me how to make you love me? It's so hurt when I see you with the other girls. should I cry in front of you so you know how much I love you? If that so, I will...

There's a song that really describe my feeling. Here it is... Mindy Gledhill - All About Your Heart

I don't mind your odd behavior
It's the very thing I love
If you were an ice cream flavor
You would be my favorite one
My imagination sees you
Like a painting by Van Gogh
Starry nights and bright sunflowers
Follow you where you may go
Oh, I've loved you from the start
In every single way
And more each passing day
You are brighter than the stars
Believe me when I say
It's not about your scars
It's all about your heart
You're a butterfly held captive
Small and safe in your cocoon
Go on you can take your time
Time is said to heal all wounds
Chorus
Like a lock without a key
Like a mystery without a clue
There is no me if I cannot have you
Chorus

I searched this song in youtube, and I found this comment. It really shows my feeling :
he doesn't know I exist and he may never know. He's so many miles away and I've never had or probably will have the chance to talk to him but... If I ever met him, I know in my heart we'd probably fall in love. This song.. is what I would sing to him

Hurt

hello peoples... it's such a year since I didn't write anything in this blog. I've been terrorized by some exams and homeworks lately. And thanks God now can babbling again xoxoxo xD

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Now I'm gonna write about my romance life. It's such a gloomy night. Honestly, I knew him about five years ago. It's such a long time, nope? but I dont know how, a year ago this feeling came. And of course, without my permission. I tried to be close to him. but it's so hard since he had a gf. You know what? It's hurt. I tried to forget him, but it's so hard... Day by day, I was waiting for him. And that day came. He broke up with his gf. Do you know I was so damn happy right that time? it's just like rainbow after the rain. And I tried again to be close to him. he told me his story, and so was I. it was a wonderful days. no tears came. I was smiling every time. But it doesn't last long. there's another girl who likes him too. when I figured it out, I was like dying inside. but I acted like nothing happened.stay happy, laugh, but he didn't realize it was a fake one. One day, he knew that she loved him. and the most hurting is, he liked her too... :'(  I'm tormented. until that day come, when I heard that he was now in a relationship with her. it's just like "KILL ME NOW!!!" . should I wait for you again? or should I go? can you hear me? I know the answer :(

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I will try now. Try to FORGET him !!! :))

aku galau? Nggak kok.
Aku biasa-biasa aja? Juga nggak.
Jadi??? Ntah la...
Aku bingung dengan perasaanku sendiri. Di otakku sekarang, cuman ada pikiran seperti ini :
"everything is OK! I can live without you. Just go away!"
"now u with her? haha, never mind. Just dont break your promises to her as you did it to me."
"you say I'm not the one for you. Now listen, you are no one for me."
hahaha:D I'm confuse right now!